Conscious Feeling&Radical Responsibility

Here comes an upgrade to our Conscious Feeling Space, which has been unfolding this month.
I’ve noticed a resistance in myself—resistance to holding space for accessing feelings and emotions without also addressing what’s behind them. I’ve been holding myself back, trying not to be “too much.” But what I’ve been holding back is actually the most valuable thing I’ve discovered over the past few months.
So hear me out—and let me know if this resonates with where you are or where you're headed:

For the past half year, I’ve been growing within an online community rooted in radical responsibility and relating. I had been doing inner work before—through NLP, inner child healing, and core shamanic practices—but I hadn’t reached the big breakthrough: the initiation into adulthood. Being turned on by realizing that I’m truly the creator of my life—not just for a moment, or during a weekend workshop, but in the everyday.

To me, real adulthood means taking radical responsibility for what is—and isn’t—present in my life, from small everyday moments to major life shifts. And enjoying it—when was the last time you enjoyed being responsible?

It goes even beyond that—it touches everything happening around me. How can I make any situation I’m part of more real, more infused with love and awareness? This ranges from holding space for true connection in a conversation to taking responsibility for a coral reef littered with plastic. Whatever I do—or don’t do—in relation to myself and others, I also do—or don’t do—to our Great Mother. That is what radical responsibility means to me.

I’ve learned that the foundation of this (inner) work is feeling. Not thinking about feelings. Not attaching stories or interpretations to them—trying to figure them out. Not recognizing and releasing them asap. But truly feeling the feeling—and working with the energy and information it carries. This requires a depth of feeling and expression that seems to still be unknown and uncomfortable for many. And yes, it took practice, and courage to step out of emotional numbness and develop my 'feeling muscle.' But once the curiosity of what else might be possible grew bigger than my resistance to change, and fear of the unknown—the fun started!

This journey has been so fulfilling and life-changing that I felt the urge to start offering conscious feeling spaces in the community. It began with the first Women’s Conscious Anger Space and continued with the Conscious Feeling Space I’ve been co-holding with Valentin Raphael. I’ve felt joy witnessing people’s curiosity and openness to this approach. And I’ve felt sadness seeing just how deeply needed these spaces are—for being seen and held in vulnerability. (Hence, we’ll be offering more spaces like this regularly—see details below.)

And yet, these spaces aren’t the final destination—at least not for me. I stand for transformation. And transformation becomes possible only when I’m willing and committed to go beyond authenticity. When I don’t just express myself, but do so with the intention of staying in connection with the other person—no matter how fiercely my underworld, inner child, or any other unconscious part of me wants to take over. This has been the big game-changer for me!

My transformation isn’t happening because I regularly access my core feelings—but because when I reveal myself and let myself be held, I remain open to being lovingly called out by others on this path when I slip into victimhood, expectations, blaming, resentment, or any other form of low drama. And to receive others’ coaching and possibilities.

This is the next step I want to take here—an upgrade to our Conscious Feeling Space. I notice my fear around setting new, radical responsibility&relating context—because it’s definitely (also) uncomfortable at first. But the liberation and empowerment that come with committing to this way of being? Priceless.
I know this is the path I want to walk. This is the life I want to live—and grow—within community. This is how Love wants to pour through me, and I’m here to play full out.

So—who is ready to play with me?

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This weekly workshop is for anyone ready to explore the fundamentals of conscious feeling work—including the distinctions between feelings and emotions, ego states, experiential reality, and more. If you're drawn to relational work or interested in joining the spaces we've been holding, I encourage you to attend and lay a deeper foundation for real transformation.

UPCOMING SPACES (private location in Asala):
(NEW) Possibility Team: Sat, 19 April 2025, 4:30-6:30 pm (free)
Radical Responsibility workshop: Sun, 20 April 2025, 2:30-6:30 pm (fee: 600 LE)
Next Conscious Feeling Space: Wed, 23 April 2025, 2-4 pm (donation based)